Look, I bet them boys think I'm panickin'
Check what my young Gs are carrying
His blade same length as a javelin
I don't know about B-ball or what's happenin'
But know that it's ****ed if he travellin' and we see him
I can't lie, I was depressed at phases
I was nineteen when the team nearly left him faceless
Hopin' that we never left no traces
You know when you're so damn tired in your house
But you can't sleep 'cause you got pendin' cases
I used to love temptin' fate, but now it's temptin' faces
For half my career I was part of that
My best friend got a burner, and it's lookin' like an artifact
Put it in your puffer or your Prada hat
Like **** panic, that's a heart attack
Yeah, it's like, life so ****ed in the time that we're in
We're fightin' the world, and we're fightin' within
Somali dad ran away from a war
Now his son's in a war, that's the cycle we're in
I know niggas that didn't do time in a bin
That have never had freedom of mind, are you sick?
'Round here, you can't have no sympathy
If you're soft then the wolves will eat
I seen people change when they taste success
Money turn good friends into enemies
Touch me, it's dangerous, I wouldn't play with it
'Cause you can go sleep, and have a different type of wake for it
I miss my dawgs, unstable
You violate Chris? Then rah, turn Chris Benoit
Have him hit from far, nah
Fill 'em up with bricks and glass, nah
My young Gs will grip, then blast
Have you tried in the street? **** findin' my feet
I could ride, but it's better when I'm sittin' back
'Cause you know I'm observin' everything
I see who's actin' different, see who's changin' teams
You ain't gettin' nothin' out of me
If I don't trust you, I won't speak
I know the ones that pretend they care
But they want me dead, they want me there
They want me stuck, they want me trapped
I've seen the snakes, I seen the rats
I seen the ones that smile in your face
Then go behind your back and talk disgrace
I keep it close, I keep it tight
I know who's wrong and I know who's right
I've been through pain, I've been through stress
I've been through loss, I've been through mess
Mummy told me, "Son, be careful who you trust"
'Cause people will break you, they don't care if you bust
I'm tryna make it out, tryna break the chain
I don't wanna end up like the ones that's in the pen
I seen dreams get lost, I seen hopes get dashed
I seen grown men cry, I seen families crash
We come from places where nobody cares
Where poverty lives and despair breathes air
They wanna box us in, they wanna keep us down
But I'm still standin' tall, I ain't fallin' down
I'm carryin' weight that you can't understand
All of this pressure built up in my hands
Clutch my chest, feel the pressure stack
Like **** panic, that's a heart attack
She just wanna deal with the pipe like I'm fixin' leakin'
And sleep with a legend like Chrissy Teigen
Where I'm from the word "Life" has a different meanin'
Man smile in your face, but them niggas schemin'
Try and involve me in a flakey dealin'
Sistine Chapel, I'ma paint the ceilin'
I been violated and I hate the feelin'
That's why nowadays man hates the preachin'
We smile in the visit, 'cause we ain't defeated
The supreme court, so my mates appealin'
I can't breed that girl, that's torture
South London, it's just slags on the corner
And influencers tryna bag them a baller
She a gold-digger, I can tell from her aura
Her socials say princess, she a pauper
When it's time for it, need more for my daughter
Call me a talker
But man are gettin' lined like lambs in a slaughter
It's life-threatening and I can tell from the borer
Cut through a nigga like a knife through flora
Feds got the guys on a case and they stalk us
It's a conspiracy like tin foil hats and a new world order
Touch me, you better have a life insurer
Blood thirsty, I got sharks in the water
And trust me, I know a killer whale, no orca
Have you ever seen a nightmare brought to life?
Where I'm from, you get cheffed on a normal night
Men talk on my name, but it's porkie pies
I really put it in a prick like a porcupine
Little bro wanna save for a .45
Go board a flight, there's more to life
Yutes on the M6 all the time
We don't need TFL for a northern line
All the best politicians been taught to lie
Where do they buy cocaine when they're snorting white?
Are their dealers safe or on the borderline?
It's ironic, 'cause we don't know where to draw the line
Man see Blue Story, they're mortified
Man see Scarface and it's glorified
'Cause when you're black, everything gets scrutinized
That's why they call it "Urban", it gets euphemized
South London, man are gettin' euthanized
I see a yute's demise, I wasn't too surprised
He got soaked but his right hand scuba dived
Don't die by a sword that you used to shine
You can drown for your king, you don't know about Ophelia
Cah we got iron, I don't know about anaemia
I took the hard road, we don't know 'bout the easier
One bag of whores and drug paraphernalia
When ends got sticky, had a flicky with Emelia, I mean Olivia
This ain't Libya, this ain't Syria
You act sillier, we let it seep in your skin like
And the highest rates of violence take place in some of the poorest boroughs
So innocent 'til guilty, ain't somethin' I have to respect
I think back to my youth and I was so ungrateful
How many of our parents had dreams they abandoned
So they could put food on the table?
Intelligent, worthy and able, that's somebody's parent
You know?
And that affected the way that I see shit
Night club toilet, you peed on the seat
'Cause you don't know how it feels when your mom's gotta clean shit
And her boss treats her like she don't even mean shit
And she gotta wait for the bus in the rain and it's freezin'
And Mrs. said that you would never be shit
And you don't wanna cry about dad, but you need him
I grew up so ****ed, but I didn't even deep it
I'm numb to the feelin' of grievin'
And man gettin' birded
African moms on the floor, just screamin'
It's mad cah I try so hard
Death's got to be easy, 'cah life's so hard
I was twelve wishin' that I was a white man, hard
Cah if I was then they probably wouldn't lif mans darg
I was dead broke, fam, I couldn't swipe mans card
And time might pass, but I still gotta stay with it
It wasn't his beef, but I see him try claim it
I seen pain erase a man's soul
I seen the reaper take more than I can count on both hands
I done seen things I can't talk about
Stuff I can't say in a song, I gotta walk about
I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders
I just hope I don't collapse 'fore I get older
Chest tight, breath short, vision start to black
Like **** panic, that's a heart attack
Yeah
Like **** panic, that's a heart attack
Heart attack
Yeah
That's a heart attack